Realizing I’m part of a club I never wanted to be a member of There are certain clubs in life you never imagine yourself joining. You hear about them, you maybe even know someone who’s a member, but you always think, Not me. Not yet. The Dead Mom Club is one of those. There’s no… Continue reading The Dead Mom Club
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I was once someone’s baby
I was once someone’s baby. Cradled in hopes and stitched into dreams, Their pride and joy, their golden light, The soft promise of better things. I was their future shining, sweet. A wish whispered into the night. The medal on a shelf of memories, The reason they chose to fight. But time, it slipped, as… Continue reading I was once someone’s baby
When I had no one to talk to
I didn’t have anyone to talk to about losing my mom. No one who really got it, what it does to you when the one person who was supposed to guide you through life is suddenly just… gone. I was young, confused, and heartbroken, but the world kept moving. And I kept quiet. Grief is… Continue reading When I had no one to talk to
Unwritten by Her, Authored by Me
Losing my mother gave me something I didn’t recognize at first—freedom.It came wrapped in grief, confusion, and years of aching silence. But hidden beneath all of that was an unexpected truth: I now had the space to imagine a life entirely of my own making. There were no expectations to live up to, no map… Continue reading Unwritten by Her, Authored by Me
A Lifetime Without My Best Friend
Sometimes I wonder if losing my mother is the reason I hesitate when it comes to forming close bonds with other women.I’ve gone most of my life without her, my first best friend, my first example of womanhood, my first safe place.And in her absence, I’ve found myself guarded, unsure of how to lean into… Continue reading A Lifetime Without My Best Friend
How My Dog Taught Me What Love Really Is
For a long time, I believed I wasn’t capable of love — or worthy of being loved. Losing my mom at such a young age deeply distorted my understanding of love. Without her to guide me, I never learned what it looked like to give or receive love in a healthy way. So I completely… Continue reading How My Dog Taught Me What Love Really Is
What I’m Learning from Grief
Grief has a way of stealing time. It lingers in the spaces where joy should be, whispering about what’s missing instead of what remains. For a long time, I let it dictate my life—dwelling on the moments I lost, the lessons I never got, the presence that should have been there. But grief, if you… Continue reading What I’m Learning from Grief
envision a future
Why can’t I ever envision a future me? Caught in the moment, Lost in the fight, Surviving the day, just to reach the night. Living on tactics, One step at a time, Focusing only on what is mine. The future’s a shadow, Too far to touch, I never thought of it— Never thought that much.… Continue reading envision a future
Learning That I Don’t Need Someone, But I Need Connection
I guess life forced me to learn that I didn’t need anyone in the way I once thought. At one point, I believed I needed someone to hold my hand through every challenge, every moment of doubt. I thought I needed someone to complete me, to give me the support I thought I lacked. But… Continue reading Learning That I Don’t Need Someone, But I Need Connection
Just Not Home
I can go anywhere I want,Feel the sun on foreign streets,Let the wind call out my name,Chase the dreams my heart repeats. I can cross the open waters,Climb the hills, roam far and wide,Find new places, build new spaces,But not the one where she resides. Home is just a hollow echo,A ghost of laughter left… Continue reading Just Not Home