The author acknowledges the limitations of human understanding and emphasizes the peace found in trusting God like a child trusting a guardian. Trusting God involves surrendering worries, praying, and striving to live without sin. The author contrasts the emptiness of worldly pursuits with the peace found in reading the Bible and praying, ultimately advocating for trust in God's unique guidance and timing.
When Hope Makes a Fool of You
I kept trying to make a maybe feel like home. I gave it a name.I gave it meaning.I gave it time. I took the smallest moments and held them up to the light, trying to figure out if they meant something more. I replayed conversations. I noticed changes. I searched for signs. Maybe this meant… Continue reading When Hope Makes a Fool of You
In the Wrong Spaces, Your Dreams Will Be Called Unrealistic
Lately, I’ve been thinking about how easy it is to convince yourself that you’re asking for too much. Not because you actually are, but because you’ve spent enough time around people who make your dreams sound impossible. I’ve done this to myself more times than I’d like to admit. I’ll get excited about an idea,… Continue reading In the Wrong Spaces, Your Dreams Will Be Called Unrealistic
The Savior Never Came
Something I've been coming to terms with recently is this: you are responsible for creating your own reality. For most of my life, I waited. I waited for someone to recognize my potential. I waited for someone to tell me I was capable. I waited for someone to guide me, mentor me, choose me, or… Continue reading The Savior Never Came
God said,
“You need to know what unconditional love feels like.” So He gave me a dog. Not a therapist. Not a perfect friend. Not someone with all the answers. A dog. A soul who celebrates my existence every single day. Who doesn’t care what I accomplished, what I look like, how much money I have, or… Continue reading God said,
I Kept Shrinking Myself to Be Accepted
My entire life, I’ve tried to fit into spaces that quietly rejected me and my thoughts. Friend groups that made me feel different because I had a father instead of a mother — which eventually taught me to stop speaking about my home life altogether. Adults whose judgment and rigid beliefs made me feel small… Continue reading I Kept Shrinking Myself to Be Accepted
My Words Finally Have a Safe Place to Land
I finally feel heard. For a while — honestly, for most of my life — my thoughts, emotions, and way of being never really had a safe place to land. Until now. My own blog, SinajOnline. A place where I can freely speak on the things that trouble my heart and confuse my mind, all… Continue reading My Words Finally Have a Safe Place to Land
All I Can Do
Regardless of the weight I’ve carried,the quiet aches no one could name,the rooms I learned to survive inbefore I ever learned to live— I am still standinginside a lifesomeone once prayed for. A younger version of me,or someone somewherewith empty hands and heavy hope,would call this abundance—would call this grace. So all I can dois… Continue reading All I Can Do
Getting Unstuck
There comes a quiet, uncomfortable moment when it’s no longer possible to blame circumstance, timing, or other people for staying in the same place. Not because those things didn’t matter—but because they are no longer the deciding factor. Being stuck often doesn’t look like chaos. It looks like familiarity. It looks like staying in environments… Continue reading Getting Unstuck
With great influence comes great responsibility
Power does not knock loudly—it settles, quietly,in the way people listen when you speak,in the way your silence can shape a room,in the weight your choices carrylong after you’ve made them. Influence is not always a crown,sometimes it is a whisperthat turns into someone else’s truth. And there, in that quiet exchange,responsibility is born—not as… Continue reading With great influence comes great responsibility
25
25 years without you.A lifetime with you in me. Somehow, both are true at the same time. There are days when 25 years feels impossible—like I’ve lived more of my life without youthan I ever got to with you. A whole childhood.A whole becoming.Versions of me you never got to meet. And I think about… Continue reading 25